with intention

Pulled out some old music today. funny how quickly i jump from style to style. I like variety. Buddy Greene is singing in my player about being a sojourner. about not belonging. very timely for today I have a firm sense of belonging with the Kingdom of God. A present reality. The Kingdom of God is not a noun. It is something that happens to me every day. I have a real sense that I am 'in process' and have not 'arrived' yet. When I choose to step into the Kingdom of God (an ethos of timelessness and eternity) ... i am more content with life, willing to say 'i'm not sure,' or 'I'm right were I need to be right now'
people can question "I long to leave my work place and enter into full time minstry and you are giving that up for what again?" i guess the life that i am leading is shaking their norms up a bit. I run into this one the most: full time ministry - isn't that the height of spiritual calling? I'm gonna give that one a big "i'm not so sure" - a small fraction of what I do every day is 'Kingdom Stuff' The rest is what i do to make money. I don't see why we can simply attach holiness or piety to anything done within the realm of clergy-hood. I'm not claiming that the role of clergy is nill, however, I not so sure it's all we've made it out to be. One thing I do know.. If your vocation is not missional, it's not "Christian" - and a full time pastor must make serious deliberate action to keep his personal calling missional.
i'm rambling and I'd rather not blog on for so long.